This is a bit about the "dating" phase of our relationship. Please under stand that there are somethings that are private therefore not shared here.
CJ and I went out on our first dat on July 12th. We went to see Men In Black and we ate at Ruby Teusday. The only move I made toward her that night was holding her hand during the movie. But it was enough for us. After dinner and the movie, we walked along the beach. We talked of Star Trek, her family, my family, and hot chocolate. That is what lead to our favorite memory of the night, I asked her to marry me! Yes I did. mostly in jest but we both kind of felt that it was more and it set the course of our relationship. She will tell you that she almost said yes. And not really joking either. The other memorable event that night was when I took her home to the dorms. I had been studing a lot about marriage and men and women and those sort of things. And as we sat there in the car, I did what few other men have done; I asked her for a kiss. She was speechless for sure. She did not answer me that night. And never really did. She wanted to say yes and kiss me. But she could not. I think this too set up a part of our relationship. $t spoke to her of how much I cared and respected her. Over the next few weeks until she had to leave for her first duty station, we spent just about every moment together. We when to pensicola FL and Mobile AL. and Memphis Tennessee. We even tried to go to a casino boat for all you can eat crab les but she was not 21. One night, I took her to Bay St. Loius to the beach we met at. We walked and talked. We held hands and kissed (she emplored a kiss out of me with those bright beautiful eyes). I took her face in my hands that night. Looked into those beautiful eyes and told her I loved her. She was again speechless (I was good at that then) and she cryed.
It was a couple of weeks in FL when she found the courage to say she loved me too. I had promised not to say it to her as not to cause pressure on her. So in that hotel room in Pensacola (separate beds and a male friend of ours with us) in the dark, I heard out of the darkness, "I love you, Joe" I could not quite beleive it so I when over to her and asked her to say it again. If I knew how it was for her to express her feelings, I would not have asked again. But I did. And she said "Ilove you". I kissed her slow and long and soft. She was beautiful there in the pale light from the window.
On the day before she left for CA, we walked along the beach (a favorite of ours). We sat to rest a bit on the pier. She was talking about her fears of losing me. Us drifting apart. I took her face in my hands. Her face is always so soft! I looked into her eyes and said," I am going to marry you. There are only two people how would stop me. You and God. And God isn't saying no.
She left and we began our long distance relationship. More to come....
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